brittanyyyy.

hehe.  :D


so basically, there's this older man, he's like, old enough to be my dad. and he's a greeter at walmart. and i know him from when i worked there. which was in 2006. :[ and he still talks to me, and won't leave me alone. when i worked there, he would always stop me and talk to me. and he's one of those people that gets right up in your "stuff" hah. when he talks to you. and he would always look down at my boobs, why i don't know, i don't have much. hah. and he made me very uncomfortable. and then after i quit, he always stops me to talk when i go in there, and i just got a really bad feeling from him, so i started avoiding him. i would pull out my phone, or talk to whoever i was with, to avoid him. so then, i went in by myself one day. and i was on the phone with kevin, so i got to avoid him on my way in, and then i was in for like five minutes and walked back out and i was getting off the phone with him as i walked out. so i didn't say anything to the guy. well i could see the guys reflection in the door, and as i was walking out he was staring at my butt, and he followed me out the door. and i walked the wrong way to my truck, and when i turned around *bam* he was standing there watching me, and he was standing outside of the doors. and then i went and got in my truck, and i turned around and he was still watching me, and he watched me drive away and pull out of the parking lot. so then i went back with jennifer a few weeks later, and i was like watch him. you'll see, prove i'm not just paranoid. and he did it again. followed us out and watched us get into our car and drive away. he honestly scares me to death. so i don't go there by myself anymore, or i try not too. and i drive past the doors, and see which door he's at before i park. so i'm trying to avoid him, but it's hard. because, the other day i went in with my parents and kimmie, and he wasn't working. but then when we left. there he is. working that door. gah. i can't get away. 

haha. so yeah...massively creepy.

so, i'm pretty sure just about everyone and their mother and brother knows that i want to wait until i get married to have sex. it has nothing to do with anything other than a personal decision. it's not a promise i've made to my parents, a preacher, or a religous belief. it's just what i want to do. ya know? and i don't see anything wrong with having sex before marriage. if you want to go for it. i mean have at it. it's just not right for me. so, kevin is the same way. thank God. and he's been messing with me here lately, cos he thinks it's funny. saying things like "what do you want to do?" "i don't care" "we could do it!!!" ya know and he's saying it in a complete joking voice and kidding completely. but he's been making them a lot lately. and today i think he could tell that i was wondering if he was still joking or not. so in the car on the way home, we're sitting there and he made some joke and said something about it again, and he goes, "you know i'd wait forever for you right?" and i was like awwwww. it just made me really happy. he's just so understanding for a guy. haha. :) we've been talking a lot here lately about getting married and moving out together and such. so yeah. things are going good. i fully intend on saving up my money so i can start buying stuff to go in apartment and rent one. if kevin gets a job. we could easily handle a little apartment here in mt. washington. so yeah. i mean, it won't be anytime soon. but i can't wait. :) 

hmm. 

mmks. welllll i'm goin to bed. i've got work tomorrow. 

goodnight lovelys. 

:)

garrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. jennifer makes me so mad. so this is a entry purely to vent about her.

so it all last night. for the past 3 weeks jennifers  been complaining because, evidently, when people are folding laundry and putting it up they're putting other peoples clothes in her room. thinking that they're hers. innocent mistake. so then, last night, someone did it again. and she came in there screaming and yelling and making my mom feel like crap, and i just told her. look you're a grown woman, you don't like it, do your own laundry. then this morning, we were supposed to do more laundry, so i told jen to come in there. 25 minutes later, she's still not in there, so then i told her to come in there again, because i needed to re-wash my hair [from the mass amounts of hair spray from kristens wedding.] and kimmie needed to take a bath. and she finally did. so we go down there, but the clothes in the dryer were still wet. so we came back up stairs. so, i washed my hair in the sink, and kimmie was on the phone with her friend, amber, because amber had her school clothes and kimmie needed to go get them from her. so i told her to get jennifer to take her because my hair was sopping wet. so she tells jennifer. 30 minutes later jennifers still in her room on her computer with her pajamas still on. so i was like eff it. i threw my hair up and took kimmie. so as starting the truck, jennifer comes out there and yells at me for taking kimmie to ambers. WTH?!?!? so, i was just like, well, she's been waiting on you for 30 minutes. and she starts screaming and i just pulled out of the driveway. so then, i get home. and she's in the shower, where kimmie was supposed to be when she got home. [jen takes 3 hour showers] so i was aggravated. well then sarah sewell was at my house, because her dad was running late to pick her up from powderpuff practice. so then, sarah had been there for about 45 minutes and jennifer hadn't even came out and said hi to her or anything. so i told her to come in there and say hi. so she comes in there, and looks at me and goes, did you and kimmie go down and check the laundry. and i was like no, you said it was still wet. and she goes well i did a load while you two were gone, why can't you two do one. and ohmygoodness. i completely lost it. nobodies ever heard me yell like that, other than family. so i've been apologizing to sarahsewell. i wouldn't let her get a word in edgewise. i was literally screaming. i was like how was i supposed to know. i was taking kimmie to ambers, which you were supposed to be doing, and then we get home and you're in the tub, and that's what kimmie was supposed to be doing. so how were we supposed to know. i was just screaming and yelling. she finally just walked out of the room and goes i'm not talking to you. because i was right and she knew she was wrong. and she's a little kid and can't admit when she's in the wrong. i'm just to the point that i can't stand talking to her right now. she's so stingy, and grumpy all the time. and dirty. she expects us to clean all day while she goes in hangs out with darren. newsflash. the real world doesn't work that way. at this point i see me moving out before she moves out again. she's just so aggravating. i need to get away.

i know all of this sounds like nothing to you guys, but seriously, this is months of stuff i just haven't said anything about and just let it build and build and build. and these past few weeks have been my breaking point...

Six-year-old Michael decided one Saturday morning to fix his parents pancakes He found a big bowl and spoon, pulled a chair to the counter, opened the cupboard and pulled out the heavy flour canister, spilling it on the floor.

He scooped some of the flour into the bowl with his hands, mixed in most of a cup of milk and added some sugar, leaving a floury trail on the floor, which by now had a few tracks left by his kitten.

Michael was covered with flour and getting frustrated. He wanted this to be something very good for Mom and Dad, but it was getting very bad.

He didn't know what to do next, whether to put it all into the oven or on the stove and he didn't know how the stove worked! Suddenly he saw his kitten licking from the bowl of mix and reached to push her away, knocking the egg carton to the floor. Frantically he tried to clean up this monumental mess but slipped on the eggs, getting his pajamas white and sticky.

And just then, he saw Dad standing at the door. Big crocodile tears welled up in Michael's eyes. All he'd wanted to do was something good, but he'd made a terrible mess. He was sure a scolding was coming, maybe even a spanking. But, his father just watched him.

Then, walking through the mess, he picked up his crying son, hugged him and loved him, getting his own pajamas white and sticky in the process!

That's how God deals with us. We try to do something good in life, but it turns into a mess. Our marriage gets all sticky or we insult a friend, or we can't stand our job, or our health goes sour.

Sometimes we just stand there in tears because we can't think of anything else to do. That's when God picks us up and loves us and forgives us, even though some of our mess gets all over Him.

But just because we might mess up, we can't stop trying to "make pancakes" for God or for others. Sooner or later we'll get it right, and then they'll be glad we tried.

so last night was horrible. i went to kevins, and my mom calls me. usually my curfew is 10 on weeknights, and 12 on weekends...well its like 8:30 and she calls and says she wants me home at 9 cos she wants to "talk." well i get home and shes on the phone with my dad,something about a job. i dunno. and i look over and my LJ is pulled up on the screen, so im like greaaaaaaaat. i already know what this is all about. so, i go ask kimmie, and she said yeah, my mom read it all and shes mad. so i just sat down and cried...i didnt know what else to do...cos i mean, she read it while it was logged into my name, so theres entries that even you guys havent read cos they're set to private...and she read them. so she told me to come in there and she was like why are you crying, and i said because i know what you did. and she said what did i do?? and i said you read my whole livejournal. and then she was like i know you're prolly like how dare she read my journal and blah blah this....and i was like wait no, stop. i dont care,read it go for it. its not like i do anything bad, i dont drink, smoke,do drugs have sex, any of that stuff. i dont do it. so go for it read it. and she goes how do i know. how do i know you're not doing all that stuff...the language in that LJ is not my little girl. but what she doesnt understand is that i dont talk like that in real life...i just get on here and if im angry or upset it just all spills out that way. but i mean, come on...think about it..half of you guys, have never even heard one of those words come out of my mouth. i mean me and kevin, for example, have been together for almost 3 months now, and he's never heard me cuss. i dunno. i think what bothered me the most is that she brought kimmie in here and told her to read it....i mean, this sounds dumb or corny, i know...but...when im around kimmie or near her. i wouldnt dream of talking like that.i try to set a good example for kimmie, and i try to be the best person i can be when im around her. i know im not always,and i know i've failed at it several times...but shes my 12 year old sister, ya know, i didnt want her to see all of that. i try hard to be a good person around her, and my moms just showin her all my flaws, the ones i didnt want her to see. like i said, it sounds corny & dumb i know. but oh wells. its the truth. but when i think about it im like, come on..it was a few cuss words. its not like i went out and did drugs or got myself pregnant. but oh wells my mom thinks its a big deal...and like i told kevin, its my own fault. i shouldnt have wrote it down. annnnyways, so then my mom just starts ripping me apart. shes like "you used to be my perfect child, not saying i pick you over the other two, but you were always my perfect girl. and your not anymore....you started going to church with brandy, and everyone was just giving me this good feedback on you, everyone had nothing but good things to say about you. everyone loved you. you got good grades, you didnt do dumb stuff, my God, you've only been in one major fight in your entire life and you were sticking up for your sister and some of your friends...you were my perfect child and your just not anymore..." so that made me feel like i was about 2 inches tall...but thats not all....then she was like "im just dissappointed...your grounded..and not even because of the cussing...just because im dissapointed." my mom was like crying her eyes out ((so was i)) and i was just like...oh my gosh...i made my mom cry...i felt horrible. my parents have only told me they were dissappointed in me one other time. and that was when i failed algebra 1...and it kills me. i dont know what to do. cos im used to ya know, i make a mistake and i can go back and fix it...but this i really dont know how to fix...i've hurt my mom a lot...made her cry a lot. and i dont know how to fix it...

i know this probably doesnt sound like a big deal to you guys...but it is to my mom...so therefore, its a big deal to me. ugh. who knows. but i better go..im grounded from the computer...*oopsies* so ill see you guys later..<3

hey guys...just thought i'd let ya know...im deleting my livejournal..possibly. i got into a ton of trouble because of it so ya know. w/e. annnnyways. just thought i'd let ya know. so bye guys. see ya on myspace. hahaha...that was from jen. =) <3 yas!

soo i have some bad news...yesterday when i got home from kimmies awards ceremony binkie was doin pretty bad. she was on the ground letting out these loud almost screams...and she did it every 5-10 minutes...so my mom and dad decided it was time to finally do it. they took binkie to some place in shepardsville and had her put to sleep. its horrible. i feel weird cos ya know...she was blind and never knew where she was goin so she was always right under your feet. and it always seemed whenever i was near the refridgerator she was right there under my feet. and shes not now. i dunno. i dont like it. i want her back. it makes me so sad. i havent cried this hard in a long time. they said she was havin mini strokes over and over and over again. binkie was 16 years old...she turns 17 two weeks before i do. and most poodles dont make it past 10...so on the form the vet filled out when it asked for age...they just simply put "too old." i know its for the best...but it still kills me. ecspecially seeing my mom. shes a wreck. you guys dont understand. i know its just a dog, but that was my moms baby. i dunno. i guess it'll all be ok sooner or later. but i better go. ill write back again later. i love you all!♥♥

sooo this weekend has actually been really good. even tho the hole tony thing didnt go well at all...this weekends been good..if ya wanna know bout the tony thing just ask sometime..i dont feel like typin it all out lol.

jen spent alllll weekend with us...it was sooooo much fun. i dont think ive ever laughed as hard as i did this weekend. =) on saturday we all went shopping. it was a blast. i found my prom dress =) yayyyyy!! im excited. i get it hopefully at the end of this week. they had to order it cos they didnt have my size at the store. im excited..i lovve it hehe. =)

thenn today me and my dad went to my cousin michaels house to get a couch that they're givin us and my baby cousin landon was there. =) i ♥ him so much. hes so adorable hehe. i dont get to see him that much so i was happy that he was there. austin wasnt there tho =(....he starts kindergarten this year...hes so cute. i dont get to see him that much either so it kinda sucked that he wasnt there...

annnd thennnnn tomorrow is my mommas birthday =)...so my dad decided that were gonna get that boxer puppy and thats her birthday present hehehe =) itts greatness...im excited..we get him in about 2 weeks yay!! =)

guess what u guys?!?!?! my parents arent fightin no more. how freaking awesome is that. my mom finally felt stupid for gettin mad over that so she got over it. so yay! hehe...ooo and more good news. well if ya didnt know i got in a wreck the other day. i was stopped up at the bus stop waitin on my little sister and this woman comes flyin out of her driveway and hit my truck. well its around $2400 worth of damage...so..my moms friend mike is gonna fix it and he said it will only take 2 weeks for him to fix it. we just gotta wait for her insurance to send us the check. and then i gotta drive some rental car or somethin until hes done with it. but idc its worth it. cos mikes gonna fix what she did...plus there were these 2 small dents on the bed where the last owner had dropped somethin puttin it in there..so hes gonna fix that too..so im verrrry happy =)yay

so im really happy cos even with all that bad crap that happened on thursday my weeks turned out reallly good. =) well im gonna go!! xoxo britt

ugh. hey guys. so im sickyish. i gots the flu or somethin similar to it. it sucks w/e it is. but o wells ill get better right?? so whats the point in wastin a whole entry whinin bout it. so here are some fun things to talk bout...

i can go for my license in exactly two days...yes count em two days. hehe...buuut i prolly wont go then. cos i havent had enough practice. and i still havent practiced parallel parking. nobody had time to take me. so ill have to wait a few extra weeks. lol. o wells

we mite be gettin a puppy...hehehe...my moms really close with her boss...well her bosses daughter has a boxer and she just had puppies well my madre has fallen in love with this little baby boy boxer...so we mite be gettin him. there only a week old tho. so it'll be a while. but there verrrry cute. =)


ok so this isnt exactly somethin happy to think bout but its good in a way. i go to court on the 9th...im scared, but hey at least it'll all be over with right?? lets hope. robert told me that they'll prolly just throw it out. i hope not. i will be verrrry angry if they do. its not right.

so jennifer and dustin might be breakin up...for good this time. they got in a HUGE fight the other nite and he called her a bitch and an ass...and then got up in her face..and she said that was the first time he had every really scared her...so she said she wasnt gonna be with someone who scared her. and she said she's kind of "over it." she's finally realized that he's too immature for her and that she deserves A LOT better...

well on a better subject. all my classes so far rock. hehe. i have american history w/ debold 1st then choir then psychology w/ clemens then english w/ ms.pierce....thats gonna be an interesting class...we dont do anything...and the people in there crack me up. lol. and my lunch is pretttty fun..cept for the freaking long lines. grrness. but o wells.

ooooo btw..im not sure if im gonna be there tomorrow..so if ur in my classes can ya fill me in on what i missed today and possibly tomorrow. thankies mucho....well im gonna go sleep some more.lol. so ill ttyl! xoxo britt♥

p.s~ can anyone tell me how to put pictures in my entry...i tried to put 2 pictures of the puppy on here and i cant get it to work..thankies mucho.♥

heey so just thought id let you guys know....binkie is doin 10 TIMES better. so im excited. its not gauranteed that she's gonna live for much longer but at least shes doin better than she was. just thought id let ya know!! yays! xoxo britt